letters to lovers

LETTERS TO LOVERS

I

Dear Lover,
This is to you, who was the first.
You
With your crazy quirks that i grew to love
-still love;
you with the deep brown eyes, the big dreams, and
your drumset.
Thank you:
You were when I first learnt to blush.

II

This is to you, dearest,
You
Who loved
Without competition
or expectations
or preconceptions
- Just a genuineness.
You who
-all my life-
have been full of
Lessons, warmth, openness, purity.
Thank you:
I have never stopped learning with you.

III

And this is to you
who is today,
who I hope will be forever;
you
with your
Intensity,
Complexity,
Capacity for joy,
Honesty;
Thank you:
Just- Thank You.

IV

We will always Be.



P.S.

V

Dear Lover,
no, you are not forgotten:
You
Who are 'friends'
and crossed over
-even for justamoment
[sometimes, with just a glance, sometimes with a confession,
and sometimes, with a full blown kiss]:
Thank you:
you make up me lightest- funniest- memories:
yes, ones that I will always cherish.

LAUGH

i wonder if you can....

[responding to a writing prompt]

i wonder if you can

laugh at failure;

laugh with truth;

laugh.

fall;

and sit there

laughing

before

you hurriedly stand

up.

laugh without reason;

laugh with fullness;

laugh out loud.

SIZE MATTERS

SiZE maTtERs
a big heart is beautiful.
a small hand shows innocence.
small feet are adorable.
long ones are grand.
size matters
only because each thing viewed
in context of its size
changes the kind
of beauty
it embodies.

... spending our lives overdoing things to make up for all the times we never did them .....

be good

be bad

just be

list poems

several yesrs ago i read the concept of list poems. well, here's one that happened spontaneously, in the process of collecting random overheard words over the course of one day:

shut up
drive
why should i?
come with me
listen
wakin' up too early
ohmygod
don't push me
play
too

its amazing how a little bit of random order and some imagination can do. lol.

Regrets

" LTTE REGRETS KILLING RAJIV GANDHI"
reads the headline today.
Oh what we would be
if we regretted before
we did.
mistakes avoided.
lives saved.
souls redeemed.
Regrets...

monsoons

monsoon rain downpours
-little sneezes upsetting
your daily humdrum.

this, incase you haven't guessed, isn't about the kind of recent monsoon that takes over entire days of your season in stroming downpours- those are just full stops!
this is the kind of monsoon that we deal with (bravely) with flimsy windcheaters and and umbrellas that get overturned.. but stops at that, and the occassional soak.

FEMINISM

all these "-ism"s we do in class. i keep wondering how many of them "work" and how many are mere concepts everyone talks about like they talk about 'truth' and 'religion'... existentialism... fanaticism... masochism...and- the big 'F'- feminism...
anyway, accurate discussion of concepts is one thing; framing clever words to convince a class of 20 year olds what their political leaning is, to me, an assumption of mass stupidity .

so here's to sister ananda:

Is feminism
A mindset or a movement?
Skip the drama, please!

i wish they would all encourage us to decide rather than actively want us to decide what they believe in.

more for rainy day blues

HA! for my current political leanings, i'm finding this hugely funny! :D

humour and the blues... long post

today's shitty and wet and rainy and dull and..... BLAH!
so here's trying to make the best of a rainy day..just some stuff to make life look more than a city full of water!

currently made up oxymorons:

COLLEGE LIFE

BEST MAN

more favourites...these are not my own:

ACT NATURALLY
AMERICAN ENGLISH
BORN DEAD
CATFISH
DAILY SPECIAL
WE'RE ALONE

and then, of course, there's

murphy's laws

...the number one for laughs and truth!

All the good ones are taken.

If it seems too good to be true, it probably is.

isn this not the sweetest thing you've seen!!!??? makes me melt!!

and THIS is how i was in lit class the other day.
LOL.













just for the record...and just so i don't forget, these pictures are from crazyphotos.com....some nice stuff in the midsdt of several things that are funny to look at but not funny enough to save. but watchable site for bad days. :p :)

this was china white!
we got dressed in the morning and realised all four of us were in whites. and then we went for dinner and it happened to be called China White.
oh well, atleast its a colour you can never get too much of!
mumbai 2006,
dad and mom for bhai's college.

sometimes, fun photos happen in the most unexpected places.

this is in bluebird, kathmandu where mom and i went shopping and met the whole jing bang lot. a second before this, asmi cha was inside the trolley.

sometimes, photos of yourself laughing is all you need to really make your day feel better..

...written on one of those days BLAH!

WHAT I'M LOOKING FOR IN A GOOD BOOK

23.06.06
Mumbai

[still writing haikus. loving them for their potential and precision]

WHAT I'M LOOKING OR IN A GOOD BOOK

teach me; oppose me;
de-stabilisze my mindscape;
...just inspire me.

ONE HUNDRED GREAT BOOKS IN HAIKU

Bought a terrific book at Oxford today. Its called

ONE HUNDRED GREAT BOOKS IN HAIKU-David Bader

Frm what i've read so far, i alreay have several favourite. here's one:

THE CONFESSIONS
St. Augustine

This is just to say
I screwed around. Forgive me.
I enjoyed it so.

And if you're read OEDIPUS REX (Sophocles), you'll love this one:

Chorus: Poor bastard.
Oedipus: This is awful!
Blind Seer: Told you so.

Still reading, loving, laughing :)

23.06.06

1 am haikus

05.05.06

TAROT
inspiration, a
whole new world carefully wrapped
in a soft silk scarf.

MY "KNIGHT OF CUPS" DAY
a gentle wake-up
cal. love, kiss, and then, good-
bye to start my day.

PILLGRIMS SHOPPING
sheer potential
in a polythene- pilgrims,
you are expensive!

ANTI-CLIMAX
"starry starry night..."
And then- the moon hides, dogs howl
And you are afraid.

KTM, NEPAL.

THE BLISS LIST

From the sporty (soccer) to the sexy (little kisses on the neck) to the small but magnificent (steamy showers, homemade whipped cream, throwing things out)- the list of all the things that make you go

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

* long milk baths in a mint scented soak

* JADE!!

* a good rock song

* a steamy movie

* even better, a steamy day!

(10 of cups from winged spirit)

* baths..of whatever kind!

* nights full of endless laughter at bad jokes

* waking up to a favourite song

* EXISTENCE (that's from osho zen )

* singing in a hot, steamy (the regular kind :p) shower with deep conditioner in your hair

* foot massages: mmmmmmmmmm

* falling alseep entangled in fresh silk sheets

* the kind of writing that "moves" you. literally!

* "Diamonds on the inside"

* just the sound mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

* 1pm wake ups

* tia maria

* melted chocolate

* melted chocolate with ti maria :D

* dimples on a cute face

* breakthroughs!
(this is "breakthrough" from the osho zen tarot)

* chocolate fondue..and the mess it creates :)

* tht familiar fragrance which always brings those GREAT memories!!

* soft ped socks

* cashmere

* the feel of my dog asleep at my feet

* candle lit rooms with flower arrangements in martini glasses

* a nice long couch nap :)

* when asmi finally lets you sleep. aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....

* the moment that you finally, after 1 gruelling minute, collapse from the plank pose

* sometimes, silence...just perfect silence.

* hot chocolate fudge with anything cold and soft

* GORGEOUS colours

* lying on your back outside of a warm day

* hotties with guitars :D

(more coming!)

...and sometimes, you need the little things.

the things we give to others, no matter how small are always valuable if we give them because we really want to.

these are the gifts i wrapped for ranjita aunty- the piles and piles of things she brought for everyone here!!!